Do You Ever Just Get Tired?

9:20 AM

 I don't like to complain. There isn't much complaining will get you anyway. It doesn't really do any good. Sometimes I just get tired though. Tired of paying all the bills myself, tired of always picking up the same messes day after day, tired of packing the backpacks every morning, tired of planning the meals, always being the one to handle all the responsibility. Yes, I know it sounds like whining, but I promise it is not. I am blessed in my life. I have four wonderful children, a warm house to live in and am pretty secure. Do you ever just get tired though?

Because of the choices I made, my responsibilities started young. From the age of 17, I was married and had my first child at 18. I have never partied or had the "fun years." Funny thing is, I don't want them. I rarely if ever drink, don't smoke and like staying at home. What gets old though, is the constant weight of responsibility that is on my shoulders. Everything from the smallest household bill, to making sure the school does all they can with Jordan and his learning disability is my responsibility. There is no sharing it and sometimes, it just weighs me down.

Tomorrow I will pick myself up and be back to normal, but for today, I am just tired. Thanks for listening.

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25 comments

  1. I totally get how you feel. I love my family, and wouldn't trade my life, but sometimes a break would be nice. The boys with all the therapies and the routines gets to be a bit exhaustive.

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  2. Hugs!!!!!!!! Being a mom is exhausting.

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  3. You are not alone in that feeling. I have a fabulous life with my 4 boys, but someday I'd like to have just 1 day off. With 2 in diapers and one nursing I know that day won't come for a while, but someday...someday I'll go do something JUST FOR MYSELF.

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  4. Thanks ladies! It isn't just that. I can go do something for myself, but the responsibility follows me around like a weight lol. I think it is just because I have to manage the money, make enough to cover everything and do all the womanly duties on top of it. Even something as simple as not actually having to make any of the phone calls for the month would be a relief. :)

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  5. Oh hunny, I think we all have our bad days. I started a morning challenge where I'm getting up earlier and the past 2 nights I've gotten grumpy and went to be at 8PM. That means I wake up to a messy house and dirty dishes, but it's okay.

    You'll dust yourself off and be ready to go in the morning. Give yourself some slack & relax! (:

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  6. Yes, it can definitely become over powering at times. But as you say, you just have to pick yourself up and go at it again.

    But days like this, and people to share it with is what you need to refuel for the next run.

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  7. Thanks you all. Glad to know I am not alone. I don't feel so wimpy anymore. I think a lot of it is that I get up at 5am to work every morning and sometimes don't get to bed until midnight, so I think maybe I will try wrapping it up early for a few nights.

    You are right Curt, I am really fortunate to have so many online friends that help me get things off my chest.

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  8. Kathleen, I could have written this exact post except I was 16, never married, and had 3 kids by age 21. Life is so hard and sometimes I want to runaway. But I don't. We all have these days. Just be content with today and tomorrow will be better!

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  9. I get it. Some days are just hard. You'll power through and be back to your normal self soon enough. Hang in there!

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  10. I am not going to say I "know" how you feel,but will say I can sympathize. I am tired, every day. So..huge hugs to ya XO

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  11. I completely understand how you feel and I feel the same way a lot of the time. I dont pay the bills but we sit down and talk about them every week so I have that weight, but the constant picking up of the same messes. The backpacks the meal planning and all the cooking and cleaning. Its a lot to do for not only yourself but then your children on top of it. Its a lot!

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  12. YES. My kids are 26, 23 and 20 and I still get tired by all of it. I am sitting in my 'old house' today because I have internet so I am doing my daily tasks and am wishing I was at the new home so I could take a nap.. :-)

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  13. Oh no April, I was hoping it would get easier when they were older. :)

    {Hugs} to all of your fabulous ladies (and men) and thanks for listening to me.

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  14. As long as you keep getting back up, you will continue to prosper.

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  15. I DO understand! Hugs mama, I hope tomorrow is a better day for you <3

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  16. *Hugs* I think we all have days/weeks like that. Thank you for speaking out about it though, so many moms feel like they are in the wrong for feeling this way when it's beyond normal. :)

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  17. Hugs I am glad you typed this.. I too feel this way some days. I know how blessed I am to have 4 healthy boys and a warm loving home and loving husband who works hard so I can stay home and be here for my children's early years before they are off to school. But honestly it is Tiring. Sometimes I feel that the behind the scenes stuff that keeps the house running smoothly is often taken for granted by my husband and boys (granted the boys are really young to understand this). But it does feel like a heavy weight on my shoulders sometimes. I totally understand how you are feeling and wish I could give you a hug in person because sometimes that is just the keep to help lift a little of the gloom.. So Hugs from a distance.

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  18. HUGS! It's so normal to feel this way. It's good to use your blog as an outlet every now and then too, I hope everyone takes the time to lift you up a bit. Life can be so daunting.

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  19. {Hugs}Katrina. We all need a break every once in a while. Today I am rested and back to my old self, but yesterday was just one of those days. :)

    Thank-you Louise and everyone else who took the time to comment. It meant more than you know!

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  20. ((HUGS)) I hope you're feeling a bit better!

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  21. OH heck yes, I do. Those are the weeks when I do very little on the computer and allow myself to recharge by doing all the things I don't normally have time to do. I hope you're over the hump!

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  22. Yes, for the past 7 years I have lost my life to disability and I am so tired of pain and not being able to do things. I hate it.

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